♥ NS.AJ

Wednesday, July 19, 2006 @ 9:00 PM

heyya .

hais . so sian ahr . lost my file . then bullied by people . aww . so sad . nah . not really . hey hey . i dont know why some people in my class scared of me . gawd . im a that scary ? loll . hope not . hais . why nowadays i keep on hearing sad song ? am i too depressed ? i wish there's someone beside me when im alone . seems like yesterday u were part of me . hah . i think u're never part of me . im torn into pieces ! do u care ? dont think so ! why am i so dump ? im angry with my own self though it wasnt my fault . i guess . hah . forget it lahr !u can blame me everything u one . though i forgive u but i cant forget what happened ! u think its so simple for me to erased all the bad things u did to me . its hard . if u were in my place u'll even feel like killing urself . im telling u the truth . cos i feel like doing it now . i want to die now . i think its useless for me tgo live in this ruined life . i agree that im too emotional . and i cant controlled it . i can be nice to u ohr i can be very nasty to u especially when i really cant controlled my feelings . when i can controlled it . u'll never see me again . but actually u can . i still live cos my parents dont let me kill myself . if my parents give me the permission i already do it a long time ago . do we belong together ? hais . i wish i can find my really true love now . i've gone mad bcos of u ! im telling u a fact . hah . u wouldn't understand what i mean . nevermind its ok . loll . nah . obviously its not ok ! grr . gee . do u know how i feel now ? what i feel now its like . i have feelings for my ex in sudden . hais . i know . i shoudnt have that feelings . but . . . yeah . no BUT BUT . loll . hah . its not funny . xiao syahida ! im always the xiao girl . hah . anyway peeps thanks for listening . if u dont understand , its ok .

gtg . byes . take cares . loves u all x) . muahs .

baby mushrOom . (: